Ask from the heart
I have many questions for Jesus, but they are not urgent ones. They're the ones that tug my heart once in a while. Since he knows our hearts, he answers me in his time.
My dear Jesus, I know the Holy Eucharist is the crux of the Mass. It is our faith. But it is still a little difficult for me to comprehend this. One Sunday mass, I was praying with my eyes closed and with my head bowed down. As I raised my head to see the priest hold up the host with his hands, I saw you instead of the priest! For just a second. Then you were gone. I know you showed me this vision to answer my longing to understand.
My dear Jesus, I feel bad because I do not feel anything when I receive you in Holy Communion. I understand that I accept you in my mind, but my heart does not want to follow. One nondescript night, I dreamed very clearly that I was receiving the Holy Communion. When the host touched my tongue, I saw you in the host. Then I woke up. And I cried.
My dear Jesus, why is it that I feel you are in my heart? Am I just thinking this, or are you really there? Another unremarkable evening, I dreamed that I saw you holding out your cupped, overlapping hands to me. On your hands was a heart. You let me recognize that it is my heart you are holding. When I looked at my heart, I saw you inside it! Now I understand that you are really in my heart.
My dear Jesus, you know I love you. But I have so many weaknesses that I don't feel I deserve your love, though I know your love is unconditional and is given as a grace. Then an answer came to my mind, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Now I understand that we can never be perfect, because it is in you that we find perfection.
I will continue to ask Jesus questions in my heart because, in his time, he will answer me. And I know he will answer yours too.
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